Army sergeant Emile Cilliers found guilty of trying to kill wife. / ITV News
A court may have found Emile Cilliers guilty of trying to murder his skydiving wife Vicky by cutting the cords of her parachute – but the wronged woman who fell 4,000ft to earth and lived still hasn't reached a verdict of her own, reports Daily Mail.
"Yes I'm hurt and angry," she tells The Mail on Sunday. "But can I see Emile as capable of murder? No."
In a startling exclusive interview – during which Vicky, a 42-year-old physiotherapist, lost the composure which has seen her through two dramatic trials – she reveals:
• She has no immediate plans to divorce her husband; • She has spent the past three years telling her two children their daddy has gone away for work; • She had a sixth sense telling her not to jump the day after Cilliers sabotaged her parachute but ignored it; • She wants to visit her husband in prison to confront him face to face, asking, "What the hell? Why? Why is this all happening?"
"Perhaps I'll parachute in," she jokes, showing the stubbornness and strength of character that saw her first survive that terrible free-fall and then find herself a hostile witness for a prosecution which in her words "had no smoking gun".
She accepts her husband was a serial philanderer and a skilled liar, that he had a sordid appetite for sex with swingers and prostitutes and that he had pressing debts. She knows he wanted to leave her to start a new life with his blonde mistress and that a life insurance payout would have helped fund it.
Vicky, a 42-year-old physiotherapist, who fell 4,000ft to earth, accepts her husband was a serial philanderer but cannot bring herself to believe he was willing to kill her. Photo / Supplied
But she still cannot bring herself to believe he was willing to kill her in such a cold-hearted, premeditated way and leave their daughter, now six, and son, now three, motherless.
"It's hard to comprehend that someone you are married to and have children with would be capable of that," she says.
It's an outcome stunningly at odds with the overwhelming evidence of his guilt and one which seems to have more to do with Vicky's sense of pride and self-preservation – and her need to protect her children – than any doubt that justice has been done.
The case was first revealed by the MoS in May 2015, but this is Vicky's first interview about it. "My family, friends, everyone seems to think they know more than I do," she says. "They see different evidence to me. Because I'm sitting on the fence they [the prosecution] felt the need to try to push me off. I felt bullied and humiliated in court, manipulated, like I was being used as a pawn by the prosecution.
"I have to go, I suppose, with the verdict. It's almost like peer pressure to conform. It's got me into a whole load of hot water because I haven't conformed, I've stuck to what I believe."
When it's pointed out to her there is no plausible alternative, she goes on: "I know, which makes it all the harder. But he was my husband. Yes, things might have been breaking down. He'd been unfaithful, he'd had issues with money, but that is not attempted murder."
Emile Cilliers with wife Victoria. Photo / Supplied
Last week, however, Winchester Crown Court declared it was – finding Cilliers, a 38-year-old Army sergeant, guilty of trying to kill Vicky twice in one week in April 2015. First he had attempted to rig a gas explosion at their modern, detached home in the town of Amesbury, Wiltshire, and when that failed he secretly tangled the cords of her main parachute and removed crucial components from her reserve chute ahead of a skydive.
Tampering with the gas valve led to a third charge of recklessly endangering the lives of his children who were in the house with their mother. He was also found guilty on that count and is currently awaiting sentencing.
Vicky has not spoken to him since he was charged three years ago and did not even look at him as she walked out of court for the final time. She doesn't love him any more but does feel compassion as he faces the prospect of decades behind bars.
"I love the husband I used to have, not the one that he became. I don't know the man he is today," she says sadly, adding: "I will always care for the father of my children."
Her priority now is to protect them from him. "I want to be able to put this behind me. I don't want it to consume our lives. It's not going to do them any favours if I'm bitter and ranting.
"They need a happy, well-adjusted life. I want boring and normal for us now, for them to grow up untainted. "One of the hardest things to deal with has been our daughter's questions and her hurt. She still asks regularly 'Where's Daddy? When am I going to see him? Why can't I speak to him on FaceTime?'"
Emile and Vicky Cilliers pictured skydiving together over Wiltshire in 2011. A court found he tried to kill her by cutting the cords of her parachute. Photo / Trevor Davies
Following the conviction, Vicky must explain Cilliers is in prison "for doing a bad thing", but she has no intention of revealing that Daddy tried to kill Mummy. She is anguished by the knowledge that one day both children will know the truth and that their son will also learn Cilliers told his mistress the boy was not his biological child but the product of an extra-marital affair by Vicky. "I can live with his lies, it's the betrayal of my children which is the hardest to bear," she says.
But then Cilliers had a long history of betraying those who loved him the most. He betrayed his first partner, his South African teenage sweetheart Nicolene Shepherd by similarly denying her two children were his. (They were.) He married his first wife Carly Taylor without breaking off his relationship with Nicolene.
After they were divorced he met and married Vicky but would then cheat on her by returning to Carly's bed and starting an obsessive love affair with Austrian Stefanie Goller whom he met on an Army skiing trip when Vicky was pregnant. Nobody knows how many flings, one night stands and sordid sex club parties he enjoyed along the way.
Asked to explain his attraction, Vicky says simply: "He's an alpha male. He's passionate and intense. When he's into something, or someone, it is 100 per cent."
Indeed, pictures taken on formal Army nights show Cilliers to be a dapper military man whose uniform fails to hide the gym-honed physique beneath. At his wedding on the South African cape, Cilliers, on his knees as he makes his vows to Vicky, is depicted as a true romantic.
He adored adrenaline sports such as skiing and skydiving, was good around the house and a devoted, hands-on father. He was also kind and endlessly affectionate. He would put Vicky's favourite wine in the fridge, cuddle her and frequently tell her: "I love you."
Emile and Vicky Cilliers pictured skydiving together over Wiltshire in 2011. A court found he tried to kill her by cutting the cords of her parachute. Photo / Trevor Davies
They met when he came to her for physio after a skiing accident. By the time of their wedding, she was already five weeks pregnant. Their first three years together, building a home, their family and careers were happy, their marital harmony marred only by Cilliers's free-spending ways.
Vicky is very clear that the image of a toxic, troubled relationship which emerged from court was wrong. Their own sex life continued until the eve of the jump in which she should have died.
"After I fell pregnant with our son, Emile went on a ski trip and came back a different person – my husband had simply disappeared," she says. She recognised he was having an affair but felt too vulnerable in pregnancy to fight it so she set a deadline of September 2015 for it to be over and her husband's financial problems to be resolved.
Cornered by debt and all the lies he had told Goller about leaving Vicky, Cilliers chose murder over divorce and ruin, trying first to ignite a gas explosion and then sabotaging her skydive. Even as he awaited the return of the jury, Cilliers was denying his guilt in frantic texts to his mother telling her: "I'm not holding up well. My life is in ruins, and I'm totally innocent."
Vicky has made a full physical recovery from her parachute crash, although her pelvis is held together with metal pins.
"Bones heal, but hearts, probably not," she says, giving a small clue as to why she can't yet acknowledge the evil which was at work in her marriage. On the hearth in her living room stands a contemporary sculpture, a heart within a heart, formed by a loving couple leaning together above two children.
It's all Vicky Cilliers ever wanted, and as much as she says bravely, "I'm not a victim, a victim would have died that day", it's impossible not to feel sorry for her.
