Painful trip back to King's Cross

For Eamon Spelman, the reverberations from the blast which devastated the train carrying him to work last week are becoming increasingly severe.

What began as deep shock has now led to wide-ranging questions about a life which, until the bombings, he took for granted.

Yesterday he remained at home, unable, as yet, to resume his commute into central London from the north of the city.

"I know I'm going to have to do it but it's going to be difficult for me," he said.

"What happened to me and others is not something you are going to forget. Over the last couple of days, I've asked myself why I go into work.

"I know I can't go back on a packed train so I will go to work before or after rush hour. It takes a massive lift of energy and guts to do the journey," he said.

Spelman, 47, an oriental carpet dealer at Harrod's, was in the third carriage when the train exploded near King's Cross. He emerged from the scene without serious injury but deeply shocked.

He regretted making the decision to take a short tube journey on Saturday which took him back to King's Cross. "It was really awful and worse than the experience of being on that train on Thursday itself. It was just awful to return to the station where it all happened."

The married father-of-two plans to minimise his Tube journeys, but wants to return to normality. "It will become easier as the week goes on but at the moment it is not. I have still got to go through a few difficult journeys."

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