For Jeremy Manley, the softball world championships in Auckland next month are a chance to make amends. The Black Sox pitcher, the No1 option on the mound for the home side, has had four years to dwell on a personal nightmare.
At the last tournament in Canada in 2009, Manley was called for illegal pitching in the early games and struggled to find his best form thereafter. He made a promising start over the United States but was at the helm when New Zealand were blown away 7-0 by Australia in a group game - and he never recovered.
The Black Sox reached the final but couldn't handle the Australian pitching and went down 5-0, losing the title they had held since 1996.
"It was absolutely horrible," says Manley, "especially not getting much of a shot at them in the final. I've only got bad memories of that tournament and it still fuels the fire."
In Canada, Manley was called for moving his feet off the the pitching block, a little like a no-ball in cricket. It counts for an automatic ball and any runner on base advances.