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Disgraced Black Cap Jesse Ryder has publicly apologised to cricket fans for his drunken off-field antics, and has pledged to sort out his behaviour.
"I understand there are a few issues that need to be dealt with, and I will be doing everything I can...to get through that," he said at a media briefing today.
"There's not much I can say apart from `sorry for my behaviour'. I'm disappointed in it, I'm sure (the fans) are disappointed in it."
He denies he has a problem with alcohol, but will be "laying off" it for a few months.
Ryder refused to go into detail about the events of the weekend, or how much he had drunk.
He described smashing a toilet window, and severing tendons in his finger, at a Christchurch bar as a "reckless mind explosion", and his abuse of staff later at Christchurch Hospital as "pathetic".
He had apologised to the hospital staff already and was planning a further gesture.
Asked about his late night drinking the day before the one-day international match against England on Saturday, Ryder again offered little insight into his actions.
"It was just to catch up with my mates."
New Zealand Cricket chief executive Justin Vaughan said Ryder's behaviour was unacceptable, and it would need a guarantee there would be no repeat if he was to have a career in the Black Caps.
"Jesse is only 23. I'm sure he has learnt a lot of lessons through this unfortunate episode."
"He knows this can't happen again."
Ryder said he was still strongly committed to playing for New Zealand.
"It's been a goal of mine all my life and to get a taste of it.....I enjoyed it more than anything in the world and I'll be doing everything in my power to get my injury right, and my attitude sorted out to get back on the international stage."
Vaughn said the incidents had prompted a review of its player protocols.
