Patrick Tuipulotu has used his five weeks on the sidelines with a back injury to reflect on his below-par recent form and insists he will be far better for his time off.
The Blues lock, named to start against the Cheetahs at Eden Park on Friday, had hit a slump leading up to his injury - a disc bulge suffered during training after his team's error-ridden round six victory against the Force. An indication that something wasn't quite right in that match could be seen in his defence statistics - the normally busy player made only three tackles and missed three.
Tuipulotu's form issues came on top of his drugs test drama which had put his whole season in doubt before he was finally cleared, all of which means he has ridden a rollercoaster of emotions this year.
"During that time I wasn't playing well - that was tough [mentally]. During the time off I had a good look and reflected, really. Coming into this week I wasn't sure whether I would get picked or not but I knew I had my body right and was ready for selection. To get the chance now, I'm just relishing it."
Given his time off and lack of match fitness - he missed the defeats by the Highlanders and Hurricanes and away victories against the Brumbies and Waratahs - he is unlikely to last much past halftime against the Cheetahs but running out on the field for the first whistle will be small victory in itself.