On the eve of a World Cup at which he'll be recognised as one of the best outside backs in the global game, Ben Smith says he spent his first years as an All Black convinced he didn't deserve to be a test footballer.
Smith, who was first capped in 2009 against Italy in Milan, says his fears that he wasn't good enough affected his performance. But looking back now, he would relish the opportunity to revisit his younger self and urge him to trust his instincts and his coaches.
"When I debuted I remember being young and thinking I didn't deserve to be there," Smith said. "At the time I was probably concentrating on a lot of things that were external to the team.
"If I could go back, I would back my ability a bit more and know that at the time I had been picked to do a job and that the coaches had full trust in me."