Deeply connected to his Samoan heritage and fiercely proud to be an All Black, Jerome Kaino has known since the test in Apia this week was announced more than a year ago, that it would be an unusually emotional occasion for him should he be involved.
The death of his close friend, inspiration and mentor, Jerry Collins, has added another dimension and Kaino, one of the hardest men in the world game, will do well to hold it all together on the day.
He's given the next few days a fair amount of thought to ensure that he can tick all the boxes he wants which would be to play well, win the test and love the whole experience from start to finish.
Since the tragic events of June 5, Kaino has put somewhere near the top of his agenda how he can make his old mate proud.
"I have had a think about that the last week or so and if I do get selected in that six jersey, how I will prepare for it," said Kaino.