New Zealand eventer Caroline Powell has had a pretty distressing year, even by her own admission, but hopes the Olympics can allow her to look back on 2012 a little more fondly.
In January she was left out of the original New Zealand high performance squad to prepare for the London Games, in March she lost her four-star mare Mrs Tilly to disease and earlier this month her mother died of cancer.
"It's been a bit crap, hasn't it?" she said of her mother's death. "What's that saying? What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. It's been really quite hard but it's just one of those things that happen to everybody and you have to deal with it and get on with it.
"The timing was great because I was able to go back for the funeral. We were in New Zealand for three days and then came back and refocused. In many ways, with her not being that well for some time, we were always wondering when it would be. There's closure on it and it has put a few things to rest."
Throughout it all, Powell has had Lenamore, the 19-year-old mount she will ride at the Olympics. The relationship between a rider and a horse is more than just one of teammates and it's hard to imagine the burly Eric Murray, one half of the gold-medal favourite rowing crew, talking quite so fondly about Hamish Bond as Powell does of the grey gelding.