Maria Tutaia says taking a break from netball helped remind her what she loves about the game.
The star shooter returned to the Silver Ferns environment for this week's national trials in Auckland after taking time-out following New Zealand's heartbreaking loss to Australia in the World Cup final in Sydney earlier this year. The break saw Tutaia miss October's Constellation Cup series and a chance at redemption against the Diamonds.
But 102-test veteran insists she would have been doing the Ferns a disservice if she had have made herself available for the series when her mind was elsewhere.
"Mentally I was really spent after the World Champs in Sydney. I don't take anything for granted, but I didn't just want to put on the black dress for the sake of it, and no one should ever feel that way, and that's how I felt after worlds," said Tutaia.
The 28 year-old spent her break holidaying in France, where her brother plays rugby, Asia and the Pacific Islands. She said having a complete break from netball gave her space to reflect on what she still wants to achieve in the game.