Cathrine Latu says it "scares the hell" out of her to be cast as the go-to shooter in the Silver Ferns.
It is a frank admission from the typically blunt goal shoot, but it is by no means a concession of defeat. The 16-test Silver Fern is determined to step up at this month's Commonwealth Games and match the standards set by veteran shooter Irene van Dyk, who stood down from international netball last month after a glittering 20-year career.
Latu was already well on her way to cementing her place as a regular starter in the New Zealand line-up before van Dyk retired, the Mystics star getting the nod over the second half of last year's Constellation Cup series against Australia. She also played the full match in the Ferns' 17-goal win over an impressive - on paper at least - England side in January this year. But in each of these starts, she had the safety net of knowing the world's most capped player was on the bench ready if Latu struggled.
There will be no such luxury for the Ferns in Glasgow.
"It scares the hell out of me to be honest," said Latu of being the Ferns' main shooter, "but at the same time this is what I've been waiting for, so it would be rude and disrespectful to complain about it."