Finding the energy and motivation to push for a Silver Ferns recall has been a difficult exercise for Cathrine Latu.
But the 28 year-old shooter says she is "not one to back away from a fight", and will be putting it all on the line at next week's Ferns trials for a spot in the Constellation Cup line-up ahead of the four-test series against Australia.
Latu was one of several high profile omissions from the Ferns' World Cup line-up earlier this year - a blow she said took several months to come to terms with.
"It was a really tough pill to swallow in the beginning and it was really hard to find the motivation and the heart that I once had for the game, because it was a decision that was really hard for me. So to make some choices around staying here and trying to get back into the black dress again has been quite tough but ultimately quite rewarding," Latu told Radio Sport.
"Whether I make it or not next week I know that I'm here purely to give it another crack because I'm not one to back away from a fight."