Neil Wagner is resigned to the fact he may never wear coloured clothing for the Black Caps.
The left arm paceman has been the shining light for the New Zealand bowling attack in test cricket this year, though is yet to feature in 50 or 20 over matches internationally.
Wagner said it's something he's wanted to do, but that opportunity may have passed.
"I think in the past I made a little bit of a mistake of wanting it too much, and thinking about it too much, that you sort of put too much pressure on yourself, and the focus of getting in the team."
"I think in the last little while I've sort of given up on that."