Her Olympic cycling hopes dashed, Sonia Waddell simply shrugs her shoulders and moves on. She's been around too long and seen too much in her sporting career to wonder about 'what ifs'.
Besides, the lure of Paralympics glory and a busy family and business life are more than enough consolation for a woman whose life is already bulging with achievement.
A former Olympic rower and wife of two-time world champion sculler Rob Waddell, she added to her impressive CV this year by capturing the women's time trial title at the national road cycling championships in January. As a relative novice in the sport, Waddell (38) defeated track specialists Jaime Nielsen and former world pursuit champion Alison Shanks by more than 20 seconds, hinting that she had some potential at international level and perhaps even next year's London Olympics.
But there were two snags. If she stepped up to national representation, she would have to abandon her partnership with visually impaired para-cyclist Jayne Parsons, whom she piloted to a world pursuit title on a tandem bike in March. Waddell might have made it if Bike NZ had shown her some Olympic consideration. Her prospects were effectively blocked by world championship silver medallist Linda Villumsen, who didn't compete at the nationals, but has a virtual lock on the one time-trial spot available at London.
"Up until the middle of this year, if I had known there was a pathway for me in the time trial, I would have jumped at it," reflects Waddell. "I would have been really excited about that and felt I could do well internationally. I had the physical attributes and wouldn't face the same learning curve that other events involve.