Once again I sit down to write about the Black Caps latest performance not knowing the result at the end of day three because of deadline constraints - but with a familiar feeling. This one may have gone the way as the others of late after just two days' play.
Right now I feel our cricket team is like an athlete who can run alongside the champion or even get in front but ultimately doesn't have the goods to stay when the pace gets hot. They are like the Warriors who look in the game but, because they lack skills in crucial areas, will eventually be broken down and beaten.
The team could hide behind the 'positives' and think, "we're not too far away" but that will only lead to a misguided appreciation of their ability and more heartbreak for fans.
The simple fact is they sorely lack the skills that will make them consistent winners at the highest level.
So now it's time for me to find something to hold on to make myself more hopeful about New Zealand cricket. In yesterday's New Zealand Herald, I saw a quote from new Black Cap coach Mike Hesson. He said he is putting players under pressure at training and making sure they can perform there.