Kane Williamson admits he still gets scratchy at the idea of sitting a New Zealand game out.
The New Zealand skipper will miss the second and third ODIs against the West Indies, in Christchurch on Saturday and again on Monday.
It's part of a strategy to give players short breaks partly to keep them fresh and partly to rotate players and give newer faces an opportunity.
Williamson, 27, conceded that with the pressures of captaincy and graduating to being a senior member of the side, in all three forms, he does understand the thinking.
That doesn't mean he likes it any better, just that he's more aware of the strategy.