In a new television interview, David Bain has thanked his parents for an upbringing that allowed him to cope with the loss of his family, two murder trials and jail time.
TV3's 60 Minutes programme claims to have the first in-depth interview with the Dunedin man who was accused of killing his whole family in 1994.
Convicted of murdering his parents, two sisters and brother in 1995, David Bain served a 13-year-jail sentence before he was found not guilty in a second trial held in 2009.
He tells Melanie Reid it's been a struggle to lead a normal life.
"I struggle with it on a daily basis from the moment I wake up, because I find that I am reminded on a daily basis of the loss that has happened and what I don't have in my life," he says.