"No amount of anything gives back the sleepless nights and stress that's already been endured. Myself and my children have done nothing to deserve this."
Authorities say the mother searched on the internet for articles such as "child poisoning through eye drops" and "drugs that can kill toddlers because of accidental ingestion" while at the two hospitals with her son.
She administered an ingredient found in non-prescription eye drops stolen from the hospital pharmacy, as well as her anti-depressant medication.
The child was put in an induced coma and suffered brain damage, but these days seems to be thriving again.
"He was very nearly killed," his father said during his victim impact statement. "He went through an awful lot of operations and tests that came with their own risks."
The man said he initially supported his wife, thinking there was no way the mother of his children could act in such a monstrous way. But as the weeks passed, and he realised she was desperately trying to pin blame on him, he came to realise the reality of the situation, he said.
"I was betrayed by [her] — even treated like a suspect in the earlier instances.
"My personal belief is a light sentence will only allow her to manipulate the system...and someday cause more harm."
The father's recollection of the emotional pain their children have gone through was seconded by his sister, who also gave a victim impact statement.
"Because of [her] I have watched continuous hurt," she said. "I've watched my brother and his children's lives get totally destructed.
"My family have suffered and endured enough pain...and deserve some justice."
The defendant pleaded guilty in April to two representative counts of ill-treatment of a child, which carries a maximum punishment of 10 years' jail, and one representative count of theft.
Defense lawyer Julie-Anne Kincade said her client's remorse is genuine. She asked for a sentence of 10 and a half months home detention, pointing out that she has been successfully on bail for the past year and a half.
The defendant believes there is no punishment worse than living without her children and knowing it is due to her own actions, the lawyer said.
"That is what she lives with," Kincade said. "That is what she has to face."
Crown prosecutor Mark Harborow, meanwhile, asked for a four-year prison term.
Justice Gordon referred to the family's ongoing pain outlined in the victim impact statements before announcing her sentence. She agreed with prosecutors' assertion that there will be a long-term psychological impact on the son, which should account for a sentence three months longer than would have been otherwise been ordered.
But she also pointed to the defendant's own abusive upbringing and her mental disorders.
"Your mental health at the time of offending was clearly low," the judge said as the defendant wiped away tears. "It is abundantly apparent you have a complex psychiatric history."
The judge said she accepts the defendant is now taking steps to address her mental illness, and that she is remorseful. She referred to a letter from a family member of the defendant who said she often sobs for hours when she thinks no one is watching, praying for her children.
"Home detention in itself is a serious punishment," the judge said.
Under the conditions of her sentence, the woman will be required to get permission from a probation officer and Oranga Tamariki if she wishes to contact any of her victims. She will also not be allowed to be alone with anyone under 16 years old without another adult in the room to supervise.
The judge approved a protection order against the woman for her son.
The child's grandmother — who didn't attend the hearing so that she could watch her grandchildren while her son gave his victim impact statement — said after learning about the sentence that she was "gobsmacked" and "gutted".
"We feel the system has let us down hugely," she said, adding that she doesn't know how she will explain all of it to her grandson when he's old enough to ask. "If this is what happens for justice in New Zealand, it's really concerning."