Debbie Armstrong drives past the road where her husband was thrown from his cycle and died instantly to visit his grave every fortnight.
But almost a year after the horrific event that took David's life, the 47-year-old still can't bring herself to revisit the spot on the side of the road where she watched him die.
Speaking to the Herald, Mrs Armstrong told of how her life and the lives of her family changed for the worst on the morning of January 8 last year when the couple went on a 70km cycle through The Lakes subdivision in Tauranga.
A highly modified car travelling at 127km/h crossed over the cycle lane along the Pyes Pa bypass on hit Mr Armstrong, killing him instantly.
In October, the driver, Dillon Michael Bishop, 22, was sentenced to 3½ years' imprisonment for manslaughter.
Mrs Armstrong said the past year had been "horrific" and while people often criticised cyclists for their behaviour on the road, she felt a lot of them did not know the true circumstances surrounding this crash that took an innocent person's life.
"It was not your average cycle accident ... This car wasn't registered, it wasn't warranted, it was so highly modified that it wasn't your usual person that gets hit by a car. He (Bishop) lost control - he was drifting.
"He (her husband) shouldn't be dead. This shouldn't have happened. It was just a boy racer doing stuff which he shouldn't have been doing," she said.