Paul Holmes whispered to his wife "I love you" before taking his last breath.
Speaking for the first time of her last days with the veteran broadcaster, Lady Deborah Holmes has revealed her husband's final words.
The reality of his death had not yet set in for the widow, who says she's still in stage one of her grief - denial - and some nights wakes up in the middle of the night in a full panic attack.
"You have to take your grief in bite sizes," she told the Australian Women's Weekly.
"As humans, we're only able to deal with a little at a time. That's how I'm handling it anyway ... There's a huge amount of pain behind the wall I've built up. I visit it every now and then but it's too terrifying so I retreat pretty quickly."