“I ache all the time, I forget why and then remember,” the now-London-based singer wrote.
“I’m not trying to hide from the pain, I understand now that pain isn’t something to hide from, that there’s actually great beauty in moving with it. But sometimes I’m sick of being with myself.”
She had been trying to ease the pain and “manipulate the endorphins” by eating chocolate, her “body is really inflamed”, her skin was “worse than ever” and she’d been repeatedly sick in recent times.
Lorde confided she was feeling so low that she had cancelled planned appearances at Paris Fashion Week which starts on Monday, saying: “At the start of my career I promised myself I’d never be one of the people in the light smiling if it wasn’t real.”
Her brutal honesty generated a huge outpouring of support from fans.
It also showed that no matter how famous you are, or how much money you’ve got in your bank account, no one is immune from life’s battles.
Lorde’s openness created headlines around the globe for the publicity-shy singer, whose music stormed the industry as a North Shore teen.
And it’s very likely she knew that sending out such a personal message to her fans would have seen the spotlight of the world’s entertainment media on her.
By going public, and the story going global, Lorde has shown – and not just to her fans – that it’s very normal to go through tough times. And it’s equally as important not to try to bottle up those emotions, but to talk; something that undoubtedly can help.
Just as we have congratulated Lorde for everything she has achieved so far in her music career, we should congratulate her for being so open.
And, more importantly, we should also wish one of our great New Zealanders nothing but the best in finding true happiness again.
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• Lifeline: Call 0800 543 354 or text 4357 (HELP) (available 24/7)
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• Depression helpline: Call 0800 111 757 or text 4202 (available 24/7)
• Helpline: Need to talk? Call or text 1737
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