David Bain spoke for the first time today at a public conference in Western Australia, saying he would never recover from the loss of his family and admitted he was still in counselling.
"It's never easier, because it taps into the most painful thing that could happen to a person," he told the Herald on Sunday.
"For me it's not a dream, it's a waking nightmare and I've got to voluntarily talk about it.
"Every time I talk to the counsellor, every time I talk to Joe or my lawyers, I have to re-live that nightmare."
Bain delivered his first formal public speech as part of a three-day conference on legal justice in Australia - which also included Lindy Chamberlain-Creighton and Dr Rubin "Hurricane" Carter.