Razia Khan stood on the edge of the footpath, inconsolable.
It was the closest she could safely get to the Linwood Mosque, where she had come to pay her respects to seven dead worshippers.
The mosque, in a shabby, yellow hall behind an empty gravel lot is still cordoned off after the massacre in Christchurch last Friday, forcing mourners to grieve from across the street.
Armed police are still stationed outside.
Khan, from Auckland, lost her imam Hafiz Musa Patel inside the mosque. He was a well-known Islamic scholar who knew the Koran by heart and had spread its message in the Pacific for 30 years.