Research shows that around 10 per cent of dads experience some form of postnatal depression. Photo / Getty Images
Research shows that around 10 per cent of dads experience some form of postnatal depression. Photo / Getty Images
Some of my best mates recently went away on an epic, four-day hunting trip. Like myself, they're also dads, and the chance to get away into the wilderness for a few days and pretend that we live in a post-apocalyptic hunter-gatherer society doesn't come up very often. Due to prior family commitments, I wasn't able to make this particular expedition. Gutted.
After they had returned, one of my mates and I were talking about the trip. We're both pretty fresh to the dad scene, and so I asked him the obvious question:
"So bro, how many times did men's postnatal mental health come up in conversation?"
To which he replied, "Fortunately, zero."
He was just kidding with the "fortunately" bit, but not about the zero.
I admit, this isn't a typical post-trip question. It's the type of question that you ask when you are in the middle of writing an article about men's postnatal mental health. However, the fact that this isn't something we often talk about as a group of 30-something dads is worrying.
Kiwi men are not talking about postnatal depression and their own mental health needs when they become a father for the first time, and it is a big worry. Photo / Getty Images
Over the past 20-ish years, New Zealand has seen an explosion of public kōrero, media and education targeting men's health and wellbeing and typical "Kiwi" attitudes on the subject.
Thankfully, there has been a cultural shift, and it's far more common and acceptable for men to talk about how we're feeling now. I'm just not sure that we've quite figured out how to take these new and improved post-90's attitudes and apply them to the way in which we talk about dadhood.
Research shows that around 10 per cent of dads experience some form of postnatal depression. Rates of postnatal anxiety among dads are thought to be similar.
Before having a kid myself, this would have been a major newsflash to me, I had really only ever heard of women experiencing postnatal depression.
Weren't men supposed to just get on with it? Work hard, suck it up and if anything ever got too full-on, just head outside and mow the pain away?
Since becoming a dad, I have actually found myself laughing out loud at the ridiculousness of that staunch, emotionless paternal archetype, usually while I'm mowing the lawn. I'm even beginning to think there is a correlation between lawns that look like bowling greens and male emotional repression.
To be completely honest, I'm not even sure if I had a single emotionally stable day in my first three months of being a dad. Sometimes it was amazing, but there were plenty of days where I felt as if my life would never be enjoyable again.
"I'm not even sure if I had a single emotionally stable day in my first three months of being a dad," writes Parenting Place's, Piripi Baker. Photo / Getty Images
I didn't actually experience clinical postnatal depression, but after going through what I can only assume was a fairly typical first-time parent experience, I completely understand why one in 10 men struggle with anxiety or depression after their child's birth.
That's why we need to talk about it.
It doesn't have to be that hard either. You don't have to ask your mates how many times they discussed male postnatal depression while they were hunting.
The easiest question to ask is this: "so bro, you just had a kid. How's that going for you?"
A great response only requires one thing: honesty.
I don't typically have a problem with being honest as most of the time I am fighting the opposite battle – being too honest. This often gets me into trouble at restaurants, and is also the main reason why I now do most of the cooking at home.
However, it's far from easy fessing up about how much you're struggling when you're a new dad, especially if it feels like your partner is doing so much of the work.
Besides, you're a man, so feeling like you might have to admit that trying to keep a glorified Tamagotchi alive is actually overwhelming and you may be nearing breaking-point, can be kind of difficult.
It took me a while, but when I finally began being honest about this with some of my more experienced dad mates, I couldn't believe the feedback I received. Most of it went along the lines of:
"Bro, I know! Those first few months are so relentless."
"One day I was so over it I considered just getting in the car, driving to Bluff and attempting to swim to Stewart Island. That seemed easier than carrying on parenting."
Conversations like these have been a massive help in surviving the biggest challenge of my life so far. Being a dad.
Postnatal depression doesn't discriminate between men and women, and when it happens to new dads it can be hard for them to discuss. Photo / Getty Images
As my honesty about my mental health and experience of dadhood has increased, so has my ability to manage the feelings of stress, anger and being trapped that inevitably arise from time to time.
Perhaps the best part, other than having mates to talk and empathise with, is the simple fact that some of the worst moments also make for the best laughs. And that's what us dads need - a chance to be honest, laugh, cry and complain about not being able to go on more hunting trips.
