Ainsley Gardiner (Te Whānau-ā-Apanui/Ngāti Awa/Ngāti Pikiao) co-directed the film Cousins, which has its world premiere in Rotorua on March 3. She reflects on a project that was a whānau affair.
Reconnection
E hoki ki tō maunga kia purea koe e ngā hau o Tāwhirimātea/Return to your mountain and be cleansed by
the winds of Tāwhirimātea
We all come from somewhere and we all belong somewhere. For most Māori this is determined by whakapapa. For Pākeha New Zealanders, both from here and from elsewhere, this might be your town, this country, the country of your origin. The point is that where we belong means something. In this Covid world, more than ever, the need to feel connected is essential. I grew up referring to myself as a half-cast. I carried this sense of fracture and displacement for most of my life. When I moved to Whakatāne from Wellington in 4th form, a classmate, Josephine Stewart, helped me pronounce the word Māori "properly" (like mouldy bread) and referred to me as a "white Māori, like her", but Māori nonetheless. It was the beginning of my journey to "becoming" Māori. Telling the story of Mata, displaced and searching, has connected with me, and I expect will move many others, deeply. Filming in my iwi, Ngāti Pikiao (Rotoiti/Rotoma), fulfilled a professional dream of making movies in the places I whakapapa to. Taking the film back to my hapū and feeling at home, with the breeze of Tāwhirimātea sweeping up from Lake Rotoiti beyond, was indeed cleansing. The journey can be lifelong, but the destination in this case, home, belonging, connection, is worth every step.
Purpose
Whiria te tāngata/Weave the people together
Cousins is a film about whakapapa and has its own whakapapa and long history, that begins in our shared colonial history and its impact on my people, and is passed to Patricia Grace, whose novel draws on those things and the stories and experiences of her whānau to Briar Grace-Smith, who takes those things and writes the script for the film Cousins will become. It is a book, a film, and it carries wairua and whakapapa, it speaks to important political and social issues that are still hurting Māori today. It is made by Māori with Māori in front of and behind the cameras, held by tikanga, in a place that I descend from. It has reminded me that, like the film BOY, a decade ago, my purpose is clearest when film-making, culture, community and social justice align. Weave together all the things that matter. In the convergence of these things there is true resonance, momentum and maybe, just maybe, even change.