WARNING: This story deals with suicide and may be distressing.
Kim Cattrall "will never be the same" following her brother's suicide in 2018.
The 62-year-old actress - who is, perhaps, best-known for her starring role in Sex and the City - lost her brother Christopher in tragic circumstances in February last year and she's admitted she'll never truly recover from the heartbreaking incident.
She shared: "I am different now and I will never be the same."
Kim confessed she was completely unprepared to deal with her brother's death, even though he was dealing with depression at the time.
She told the Mail on Sunday newspaper: "No one can prepare you. He was suffering from depression but depression is a curious thing and it can be impossible to detect if someone does not want you to know.
"And so I didn't know. We [her family] didn't know. And when you lose someone to suicide there is always the question, 'If I could only have, if I did only, if I was only...' and it haunts you. And you have to learn to live with those endless questions, the endless guilt, the endless frustration every day because you are in a new reality and there is nothing you can do to change it."
The actress also admitted to experiencing a whole range of emotions in the aftermath of her brother's death, saying her mood would change on a day-to-day basis.
She explained: "It breaks you. It is so hard.
"There is a whole process for you and everyone around you of picking yourself up every day, going from a bad day to having a better day and then going back again. And it goes on."
Where to get help:
• Lifeline: 0800 543 354 (available 24/7)
• Suicide Crisis Helpline: 0508 828 865 (0508 TAUTOKO) (available 24/7)
• Youth services: (06) 3555 906
• Youthline: 0800 376 633
• Kidsline: 0800 543 754 (available 24/7)
• Whatsup: 0800 942 8787 (1pm to 11pm)
• The Word
• Depression helpline: 0800 111 757 (available 24/7)
• Rainbow Youth: (09) 376 4155
• CASPER Suicide Prevention
If it is an emergency and you feel like you or someone else is at risk, call 111.
