Paul Holmes' daughter, Millie Elder, has spoken of her long battle with P, her often-fractious relationship with the broadcaster - and being drug-free for more than two years.
In an exclusive Metro magazine interview, the 23-year-old admits she was "a bit of a shit", with little respect for her family, as she battled her $1000-a-day addiction.
But she is now drug-free, working at the Auckland Chamber of Commerce, studying by correspondence and talking again with her father after they famously fell out over her lifestyle and police arrests.
"Looking back, I cringe," Ms Elder told Metro. "I just think I was a bit of a shit, to be honest. I was emotionally dead inside. You don't have any respect for people when you're on drugs, you don't care about anyone else.
"As a parent, you need to understand you're not dealing with your child; you're dealing with your child on drugs, who doesn't give a shit.