Kid Cudi announced on Facebook that he has checked into rehab for "depression and suicidal urges." Photo / AP
Kid Cudi announced on Facebook that he has checked into rehab for "depression and suicidal urges." Photo / AP
Kid Cudi has checked into rehab for "depression and suicidal urges".
The 32-year-old hip hop star has checked himself into a facility after admitting he is a "damaged human" who struggles to leave the house on a daily basis or trust anyone because of his anxiety, and while he is "scared" and "nervous" about the process, he is determined to get better.
He wrote on his Facebook page: "Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I feel ashamed.
"Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I've been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans.
"Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges.
"I am not at peace. I haven't been since you've known me. If I didn't come here, I wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it.
"I cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get through this. (sic)"
Despite entering rehab, Cudi - whose real name is Scott Mescudi - has "promised" fans his next album, Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin, which was pushed back last week due to some "minor sample clearance" issues, is still "on the way".
He also plans to be out in time to play at Long Beach festival Complexcon, which he is due to co-headline on November 5th and 6th.
He added: "I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery.
"If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs.
"Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like s**t, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry.
"I love you, Scott Mescudi (sic)"
Where to get help:
• Lifeline: 0800 543 354 (available 24/7) • Suicide Crisis Helpline: 0508 828 865 (0508 TAUTOKO) (available 24/7) • Youthline: 0800 376 633 • Kidsline: 0800 543 754 (available 24/7) • Whatsup: 0800 942 8787 (1pm to 11pm) • Depression helpline: 0800 111 757 (available 24/7) • Rainbow Youth: (09) 376 4155 • Samaritans 0800 726 666 • If it is an emergency and you feel like you or someone else is at risk, call 111.
