Survivor's latest victim Christine Shields Markoski says having to leave the reality show after winning five straight Redemption Island duels was "horrible".
The 39-year-old New York teacher was the first contestant sent to Redemption Island on Survivor: South Pacific but managed to mastermind the elimination of five fellow competitors - until she came face-to-face with opposing tribe leader Oscar "Ozzy" Lusth.
Lusth, who had taken the controversial move to send himself to Redemption Island, beat Markoski on her 14th day, easily winning a key gathering challenge.
She told nzherald.co.nz she had grown to enjoy spending time on her own.
"At first it was really difficult and I was very lonely. I kept asking myself what I was doing and second guessing every decision. Once I got over that it became my home," she said.