“I had four kids. I wanted them to have a life.
“It was a hard moment in time. I literally thought of self-annihilation so they could survive. That’s how low I was.”
The Mandalorian actor ultimately knew any financial hardship wouldn’t be as bad as leaving his family with the “lifelong trauma” that his death would cause.
He added: “That was the first inkling that there was a way out, but I wouldn’t be here to be available to my kids.
“Then I started to think that’s not viable because the pain I would cause them would be lifelong, and there’d be lifelong trauma that would just extend the generational trauma I’m trying to move away from. The light at the end of the tunnel was Breaking Bad.”
Esposito admitted earlier this year he’d love to reprise his role as Gus, who he portrayed in 26 episodes of Breaking Bad and 34 instalments of prequel series Better Call Saul, for a spin-off of his own.
He told Britain’s GQ magazine: “Yeah, I would love that. My backstory is he was a military guy who worked his way up through the ranks and could have become president, even possibly the dictator and have taken over.
“But he wanted to do something that could not be controlled by others, and he wanted to control his own destiny. And so he took off to create a new life for himself in America and become a meth dealer, a businessman.
“I think, in his younger years, he was someone who could have been more Tony Montana.
“But he worked his way into becoming level enough to listen, hear, and see through his emotional state. We would hope that it might be The Rise of Gus.”