"But, as far as the Silver Ferns thing, it's there but that's not my project at the moment because they've shown more than enough times that they are going to make their own decisions on what they want.
"If they want me, I'll do what I can for them but if they don't then I'm here to be the best me I can be for the Pulse."
For Tuivaiti it's still a guessing game on what the Silver Ferns want from her so she's stepped away. She lost the confidence of the previous Ferns coach Waimarama Taumaunu for the World Cup and Constellation Cup in 2015 and missed the cut of incumbent coach Janine Southby last year.
"I've taken the pressure off trying to impress people who aren't telling me what I'm doing wrong ... my main and only focus this year is to be as accurate as possible for the Pulse," she says.
Her sense of obligation to the Pulse is reflected in her decision to be away from her husband, Jim Tuivaiti, a rugby No 8 plying his trade with Italian club Calvisano for two years.
The word "different" crops up frequently to explain why she's stepping away from her perceived sense of comfort zone.
Tuivaiti feels the pressure more than perhaps any other teammate because the Pulse play first up (Sunday, March 26) her home franchise, Sky City Northern Mystics, where she had played for nine years.
"It's a little bit scary for me but it's what I asked for because that's what I wanted to do - something different - so I made a decision to leave because I had done my time with the Mystics," she says, revealing she made the move after consulting a few Mystic soulmates and family as well as her husband, who she married in March last year.
"My focus is clear on the Pulse. I'm not sure what the Silver Ferns want, as much as I ask, so that's got nothing to do with me but if they call on me I'll be there but there is no energy going towards being a Silver Fern again."
Tuivaiti rates her decision to switch allegiances even harder than when she had to leave her home at 14.
"I moved away from the north [Bay of Islands] to move to Auckland but I still find this the hardest because I had created a life [with the Silver Ferns] that was so familiar to me that I had to step away from that."
Tuivaiti had a choice to move to Italy with her husband or ply her trade in Australia or England but she stayed because she saw benefits in the return to the premiership.
"This was the only way and the best way to go back top our roots to see what separates New Zealand netballers from the rest of the world."
She still believes the Kiwis are the best in the world even though they are ranked No 2 globally.
"We need to go back to our flavour and our style," she says. "We're very flairy. We are a little different in that we play space and we play what we feel, not necessarily what we see and I think we've gone away a little bit from that."
Tuivaiti says there has never been a more opportune time to embrace something Kiwis are inherently blessed with.
The attacker, who made her Silver Ferns debut in 2011 before falling out of favour in 2015, says with so many different philosophies on how to play around the world it seems New Zealand are trying to adopt a little bit of everything in a bid to combat the Australian dominance.
"Our style has worked for many years and it's suddenly stopped working so it's time to figure out what it is, although my heart believes it's because we've stepped away from what we know and what we are good at and that is playing as New Zealanders."
Tuivaiti is enjoying the Pulse environment a little bit more than she had anticipated.
She rules out any suggestions that the switch is another road to working her way back into the Silver Ferns' equation.
"I wouldn't say it's to get back into the Silver Ferns. That's a decision they can make themselves, just like the decision they made when they didn't want me.
"I'm here because I wanted to do something else with some different people and a different coach in a different way of playing and so far so good."
